Sorry for your loss. I to know first hand the feeling of loosing your best friend. For me it was my old girl Denver. I got her for a grading present when I was in grade 8 in 1998. SHe was too my best friend and she did everything with me. While I was doing my military training she would stay with my mom and as soon as I would return she would be estatic to see me.

She was 12 years old when she died. ANd like you it happened at the vet but I am the one that had to give the word to put her down. And also I hold her death on my shoulders. She never ever once in 12 years rooted through the garbage but one night after cooking and disposing of a ham (Bones/Fat/left over meat) she got into it over night, and when I awoke the next morning I came down to 23 different piles of vomit on the floor and her laying almost motionless on the floor.

We rushed hwer to the vet where she stayed for 2 days on IV meds trying to recover. I was able t bring her home so we could spend the last night with her. We made a bed on the living room floor and that where all three of us slept until the next morning (where she wasnt doing any better) took her to the vet.

I dropped her back off at the vet in the am for treatment and I recieved a phone call in the afternoon saying I should get there as soon as I could. I left work and called my wife and she joined me as I had to make the heart breaking call to put her down. I loved that dog with all of my heart and I miss her all the time. She is still with us in an Urn on the mantle.

Typing this now brings back the bad memories and I am choking up as I type.

Sorry for stealing your thread but I just wanted to let you know that I know exactly how you feel and I am truely sorry for the loss of your best friend. Time does help, but time never cures the pain you have from loosing a friend.